December 2011
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I'm a bitch and I love myself for it.
So, my grandma fell and hit her head earlier this morning. They found her on the floor with a black eye. Apparently she’s bleeding behind her eyes and we don’t think she’s going to make it. My mom is driving almost 10 hours down to her, and my mom has worse anxiety then I do, so I’m scared my mom is going to have an anxiety attack and hurt herself on the drive down. I...
I was once told that the right person would look...
I’ve spent the night somewhere every night for the last 9 days. I haven’t really been alone once. I wouldn’t let myself. Tonight is the first night I’m truly by myself. I’m really worried and curious to see how this goes.
I'm in denial and I intend to stay there.
I just don’t want to be alone anymore. Even when I’m with people, I still feel like nothing is different. Sure, some people make a difference, but not by much. It still all feels the same.
That awkward moment when
you’re little cousin asks where your boyfriend went and you say that it’s not your boyfriend, but his best friend, then leave the room awkwardly as your entire family stares.
I just needed you to be there. That's all.
Finally.
That’s all I have to say.
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My soul is in the sky. ~William Shakespeare, A Midsummer Night’s Dream
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I’ll sing along, but I’m barely hanging on. No, I’m barely hanging on
I've grown to hate the holidays.
I'm just tired of being alone.
I can’t tell if I’m being impatient, or if my feelings are reasonable.
God has perfect timing.
Even if it doesn’t feel that way at times.
“I like people too much or not at all.”
– Sylvia Path (via xcassiekilla)
Is it bad that when I paint, I use the end of the paintbrush in the paint, then later put the end in my mouth when I have too many brushes in my hands or when I’m thinking? I was told that was one of the reasons Vincent Van Gogh went crazy, eating paint. He’s my favorite artist, so I suppose it’s not so bad.
“I want to be able to sleep in an open field, to travel west, to walk freely at...”
– Sylvia Plath (via msleidyp)
thingsthatare asked: Hellooo beautiful! We should definitely hangout soon. ♥
You know whats really sad?
That when I get into a place like this I have no one near me to turn to. I feel like a burden on everyone. And the only person who I can talk to and who can comfort me, is someone who lives all the way across the country. It shouldn’t have to be like this.
I can't handle being alone for this long anymore.
I just really miss you right now.
I never thought I would take it this hard, not seeing you. I just think to myself, be patient. It’s really difficult knowing that you might never be okay. And that I won’t be able to help you. I just want to hear your voice. To know you’re physically okay. Because, lets face it, we both know that even that’s a stretch.
